Life and Death

Today I thought about death. I considered the pain of various methods of dying. I pondered the reasons people allow themselves to die. There is this idea of going down in a blaze of glory. Death can be the fastest way to achieve glory and to ensure you are remembered as you really want to be. All you have to do is die for something other people believe in. But it seems to me that we live for what we believe in. That being the case, I am not sure I like what I believe. Most of it, but sometimes I just do things and I look back on the day and am repulsed by how selfish I was or how prideful or how inconsiderate I managed to be.